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Archive for June, 2005

A date with a prostitute!

It was a live night in the club! I walked in at about 11:00PM to celebrate my friends graduation. New faces and figures whaere all around. Except for the time when i saw her walk in. She was the pretties of all, the most glamourous. I asked her for the dance of the night, the only dance i wanted to have, I felt like all the people where staring at me with ironic jelousy. Why would she want to dance with someone like me! why?

We ended up at the porch. I sat and talked to her for the last few hours of the party till it became about 3:00AM. She was very excited about the many different topics that we had going on. We had to get our “bags” packed for an after party. It wasn’t really an after party it was just a gatherup. and so she joined. At that point, my friends started taking me aside asking if i had enough money for this. “????????” WHAT??? enough money for what?! she comming over to gather up! Why do i need “Enough Money!” . I didn’t get it..

Anyways! I sat aside with her and talked slowly about everything. Untill She openned up and asked the question! “Do you know what do i do for a living?” a question i should’ve asked a long time back!

“A waitress?” – “no!” – “A Chef?!” – “No!” – “Sales” “Graphics” “Management?” – A Hostess…. NOO!!!…

She turned her face away and asked if i really didn’t know what is her job… i said no! i really had no expectations. Then she said it.. With a face not only read of embarassement! Yet before she said it, She asked of what do i expect from her. I answered an oath to friendship that may prosper to a serious envolvement!

Now that she said it i didn’t know what to think, for she was different than what i saw earlier!!
(sorry for the crapy version of this article its the netcafe that sucks! and their keyboards)!
TO BE CONTINUED!

A Prelude To Love

This topic can and will be understood in two different ways, either:

A prelude to fall in love with, or,
A prelude towards love.

Well what i will be talking about is the “Prelude towards love”.

Guys usually end up scanning girls walking around the mall,in the dancing floor, the park, the swimming pool, the beach, etc… Once the scanning radar comes to a halt then comes up the next step! Grab & Retrieve!

The Chat Up lines
The reason i am writing this is that i have been skimming through the thoughts of what would be the best chat up line and what is the best way to pick a girl up from no where. I searched and asked.. apparently the best line would be, “can i buy you a drink”, yet, what made me search even more after i reached my conclusion what hearing the lamest, weirdest, and korniest pick up lines ever, here are a few!

  1. You don’t know me but I dreamt about you last night
  2. Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?
  3. A guy into fat girls said: “you dont sweat much for a fat girl, do you?”
  4. “My shoe size is bigger than Shaquille O’Neal’s”
  5. One guy said: I just lick my eyebrows
  6. Me: “Would you like to dance?”
    Hot girl: “No”
    Me: “I don’t think you heard me, I said you look fat in those pants.”
    That’s how it goes most of the time for me.
  7. When assisted by highly supportive undergarments and,after factoring the inevitable results of pregnancies combined with a genetic disposition toward excess weight in the hips and buttocks,for which you must be held blameless,you are a strikingly lovely woman when compared to others in your age group.
  8. “Nice shoes, wanna f***?”
  9. “I lost my Teddy Bear, will you sleep with me?”
  10. How About u just stare at her chest and mumble for a bit, maybe she’l get the idea.
  11. I think I must be dying because I’m looking at Heaven.
  12. Do you sleep on your stomach? If not, can I?
  13. Here’s 20p… What’s it for? To call your Mum and tell her you’re not coming home tonight.
  14. You are the hottest thing since sunburn

Well, that is it! A full response on how lame guys can be! but fill it up, these lines actually work sometimes.!

Alanis Morissette – Uninvited

I have changed a bit of the lyrics to fit my state.

I Say:
Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot-blooded woman
You have simply wanted an object to crave
But I, I’m not allowed
I’m uninvited
An unfortunate slight

She Says:
Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepherd need shepherd
But you you’re not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I Say:
Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight

She Says:
I don’t think you unworthy
I need a better reason to Liberate



A true sad story!

Fallen Angel!

I found this topic some where

Brief overview of fallen angels

Fallen angels…What do people think of when they hear or see this phrase? Most people might just give a confused look and think nothing of it. Others might think of Lucifer and what happened to him. However, the fall of the angels goes far beyond what most people think. Tied up within all of this mythology are a couple of reasons why this myth was created. There are three possibilities which, in my opinion, are acceptable. They are:

  1. The myth is a way to explain the problem of evil in the world, whether it be evil done by nature, such as natural disasters, or evil done by people, either physical or moral evil.
  2. It is a way to show what can happen to people if they do not follow the Word of God. After all, if angels were punished, what does that say about people?
  3. The problem of salvation. If there were no evil in the world, how can one distinguish what is evil from what is good and and after passing on, receive the fruits of their actions if they were good, or receive punishment if they were bad.

What is a fallen angel, though? A fallen angel is a being created by God and who, for some reason, disobeyed Him and for punishment, was hurled from heaven to dwell within what we know as hell. Fallen angels come from all orders of the celestial hierarchy, from the rank of the Angel, to the rank of the Seraphim, like Lucifer. If you parallel this to mankind, then any person, whether it be the leader of a powerful nation, to the person next door, could fall. It makes for interesting and provoking thought…


Reasons for their fall

There are seven hypotheses for the fall of the angels, although I personally feel that out of those seven, only three have legitimate backing from Christian and Jewish mythology, as well as the interpretations of those myths by scholars in religion. I will provide all seven hypotheses so that way you can decide for yourself what seems to be most plausible for you.

Hypothesis One: The Shadow of God
This part will not be discussed for religious reasons! Sorry! You can surf the net and find out more about it! Its just too much for me to accept!

Hypothesis Two: The Consequence of Free Will
The second hypothesis deals with free will and the problems that creatures who possess it can run into. This hypothesis was first put forth by Origen of Alexandria, a member of the Greek Church. He believed that God had created his angels, who were all equal and free. However, by having the power of free will, some of these angels began to move farther away from God by their own chice. Origen maintained that those who drifted the least remained in the regions closest to God. Those who moved further out fell into the lower air, and these became what we know as angels. Those who moved still further away became humans, and finally those who moved the furthest away from God became the Fallen Ones, or demons. These Fallen are those that make up Hell. This one is very interesting because Origen also stated that although these angels fell and became humans or demons, all hope is not lost because men can become angels and demons can also regain their former angelic appearance. The flip side to this, however, is that angels can also fall to become men, and if depraved enough, can become demons.

Hypothesis Three: Lust
The third hypothesis comes from a series of non-canonical books title The Three Books of Enock, a set of books found in the Pseudepigrapha of the Old Testament. A simple verse from the Book of Genesis in the Old Testament also alludes to this event but nothing more is said about it in the Bible. What happened was that God asked a select group of angels to assist the Archangels in the creation of Eden. This groups of angels are known as the Watchers. The Watchers who descended to earth saw the daughters of man and became enchanted with them. Consequently, they began to reveal to man secrets of Heaven such as the movement of the heavenly bodies (Astrology), the art of making weapons, and also the enhancement of the face and body with perfumes and make-up. The Watchers fell in love with the women and some of them even took wives and created offspring, giants, known as the Nephalim. This made God angry, so angry in fact that He cursed those who betrayed Him, threw them out of Heaven, and made them mortal or transformed them into what we know as demons. This is where the story of The Flood comes in because the Nephalim made such a mess of earth, by wanton killing and destruction, that God got so fed up that he had to drown the entire earth to get rid of them. Some notable angels who fell in this account are Semyazza, Sammael (Satan), and Azazel.

Hypothesis Four: Pride
The fourth hypothesis is a well known one, which involves Lucifer. Lucifer was the first angel and a Seraph to be created and the mightiest. He had the most intelligence and power in Heaven second only to God himself. To prove this, God created Lucifer with twelve wings instead of the normal six wings that all other Seraphim have. His radiance outshone that of any other angel and his beauty was unmatched anywhere in Heaven. Unfortunately, it appears that all of this power eventually went to Lucifer’s head. He became very ambitious and self-centered until one day, he decided that he was going to show everyone his power. To prove this he was going to raise his throne to the height of God’s throne. Well, this did not sit too well with God, and He did not want another lower being trying equal Him in His power. When Lucifer went ahead with this God instantly hurled him out of Heaven. It is said that the force which God used to throw Lucifer down caused a great explosion on earth and caused Lucifer to be driven straight down into the center of the earth. The reason that Lucifer fell was because of pride, or Hubris in Greek. Lucifer is presumed to be still there, fuming and cursing God and coming up with ways to thwart His plans.

It is interesting to note that this account for the rebellion might come from ancient Canaanite manuscripts that deal with one of their own deities, a being by the name of Shahar. Shahar was thrown out due to the same shortcoming that Lucifer had, pride.

Hypothesis Five: War
There are two accounts for this. One says that the war took place on the second day of creation. The second says that the war took place after the creation of man. The myth goes that God created the angels with free will, but He observed that they were fallible. God thought that his creation might give in to sin too easily. His solution was this; He strengthened some of his angels, two-thirds of them, in their pursuit of goodness by an act of Grace. He then created another group of angels, but this time he did not give them His Grace and waited to see what happened. As He thought, this second group of angels gave in to sin. War erupted in heaven and ended with Michael and his legions casting out the sinners.

Hypothesis Six: The Passion of the Redeemer
This account of the fall comes from Saint Augustine, and is very interesting. It is said that for this hypothesis, Lucifer and his angels have already fallen, have tempted Eve, and have dominion over humans. However, the real fall of Lucifer and his angels takes place when Christ is born. Up until this time, Lucifer had control over mankind, but God decided to make a full reconcilitaion with man. He was to feel as we feel and to suffer as we suffer inder Lucifer’s reign. So, in the form of Christ, God delivered himself, like the of us, to Lucifer. God decided to bait Lucifer by using Himself, and since Lucifer already hated mankind, what is one more soul to him? What Lucifer did not recognize was that Christ was both divine and sinless. Lucifer had an agreement with God, that was Lucifer only had dominion over sinners and so by breaking the contract he was forever damned. In his unsuccessful temptation of Christ, Lucifer was puzzled and could not decide whether Christ was divine or not. Lucifer has suspicions that if Christ really is the Incarnation, to seize him will bring ruin upon them all. When Lucifer actually goes for the soul of Christ, he takes the bait. Instead of grabbing a sinner, Lucifer finds God there instead.

Hypothesis Seven: Disobedience
This myth combines both pride and disobedience to bring about the fall of Lucifer and the angels. It is said that when God created mankind, He wanted to have His angels acknowledge mankind by bowing down to him. Lucifer, who was at that time the greatest of the Seraphim and Regent of Heaven, refused to bow before mankind. “How can a Son of Fire bow to a Son of Clay?” was his response. God was not pleased with this reaction and in His anger, He hurled Lucifer out of heaven and one-third of the angels decided to follow him.
There is an interesting note to this one, however. There is a Sufi version of the story that goes like this. According to this legend, it was Lucifer who loved God the most. Here is the catch; at the time of the angels’ creation, God told them to bow to no one but Him. However, God created mankind, whom He considered were superior to the angels. God commanded them to bow before the new figure, forgetting His previous commandment. Lucifer refused, partly because he could not forget the first commandment, but also because he would only bow to his Beloved God. God did not accept this and so h
e cast Lucifer down for his insubordination. The worst pain of hell for Lucifer is the absence of God. Hell is the terrible lonliness of seperation from love.


Courtesy of http://www.public.iastate.edu/~cbenton/fallen%20angels.htm


My apologies for those who felt insulted by this topic! Its not the fact that I belive in it or not! It was just a very interesting topic and a very weird mythology to exist! But comes to my final comment:

The Bloggers Comment!:

Freewill, Lust, Pride, War, Passion, Disobedience! A fallen angel! Such a myth to discuss requires the experience of these words! But be it a will or not, at some point we are all fallen angels!

Delegates of Friendship! My apologies!

There are people who try to fix things between friends. Some take the right path, some don’t know what the hell are they doing. Sometimes people say things that are very different from what other people might be saying.

Three people, two of which had a misunderstanding, where included in this story. I will refer to them as the associates and the third party, respectively. The associates of this dilemma had a misunderstanding regarding a certain action one has taken infront of the other that was taken as an insulting action towards the other associate.

The third party always intrudes in trying to fix the misunderstanding. He goes to each one of them in separate altiudes listening to the different faces of the story. He will reach a point of confusion that he wont know who is saying the truth between them. After long quarrels and discussions, he will form enough confusion in both heads of the associates and the whole thing would flip against him and make them think that it was all his fault. The third party ends up saying that he tried to do good but then blamed and then starts taking it back on them. Then other third parties start including them selves, and everybody just starts hating each other because of one third party that didn’t know how to deal with things – The initiation of the third world war.

That is a true story!

My apologies thy delegates of friendship (the third party)! Next time you try to be nice. Try to be nice in something you know how to deal with! Its your fault to be honest. In my case all I do is drop the advice of fronting each other and sort it out together! Face it that’s the best and the fastest way!

Alanis Mourissette – Ironic

The bolded lines are more like me!

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It’s a black fly in your Chardonnay
It’s a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn’t it ironic … don’t you think

Chorus
It’s like rain on your wedding day
It’s a free ride when you’ve already paid
It’s the good advice that you just didn’t take
Who would’ve thought … it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
‘Well isn’t this nice…’
And isn’t it ironic … don’t you think

Repeat Chorus

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out
when You think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up In your face

It’s a traffic jam when you’re already late
It’s a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It’s like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It’s meeting the women of my dreams
And then meeting her amazing groom
And isn’t it ironic… don’t you think
A little too ironic… and yeah I really do think…

Repeat Chorus

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out Helping you out

Tazmanian Devil


The content of this topic is for readers above 16 years of age

She walked back into my life as if no one was ever hurt in her past departure. She talked to me as if nothing has ever happened wrong between us. She used to talk to me at the end of each night and sing to with her beautiful voice. For I love the women who can sing. I used to love to lie my ears of her chest and rest. For I loved the women with behemothic bosoms. She used to say words that would leave me lie down in bed in amorous behavior. My passion to her was within the weakness of being loved once but betrayed with the infection of departure.

Every word she said meant a lot to me, not anymore. Every bliss of speech she had was my glamour in my life. She used to give me the power to protect my self from being availed again. In our speech she spoke the words that drilled me with passion. She moaned for my love that she awaited me to speak of. But my answers were vague.

She asked relentlessly of my unfocused silence; “What is wrong with you?”. What is wrong with me? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!! You really want to know what is wrong with me. You left me at the darkest days of my life telling me that I was wrong about some gesture that I never betrayed. You faulted me at all your mistakes. I always took the blame for everything just to make you happy and to save you the embarrassment with me. And why you would ever take it as an embarrassment if it was with me. You brushed off every date I offered for reasons that might of might have not been right. You absolved your errors with stories of your inadmissible marriage and your apocryphal stories of your injurious delirious mother that apparently have ruined your reason to exist. After all this, You really had no possible way to contact me once or to send me message in any possible way. I am not sorry or regretfully of the days I have spent with you I’m not denying its existence; but now I have learned.

Now nothing is the same. I fall in love with a women then attach my self to the materials that she is, for far lost than denied, touchable can be seen to remind you of emotions, sometimes your weaker than you expect your self to be. For now it would probably turn into lust. Words she spoke meant nothing to me, Sounds she made sounded stupid and unbearable and the existence of such intentions just made me feel guilty.

I told her what I was going through, but she turned around to tell me her problems. I need to be heard in this. I need to be noticed. Well not really! I really don’t care anymore.

I told her that I felt guilty. Guilty for thinking of giving her a chance, Guilty to my self and to the person a I fell for in this time apart. Guilty for I lost love that was everlasting, guilty for every moment have spent away from her with a smile. I fell for someone that will listen to me as much I listen to her. I fell for someone that killed me with a smile. I fell for someone that I have not attached to any material that I see. Who are you to compare with her. Who are you to walk back into my life and ask for a jester of my love to you as if who ever you hurt was as equal as who has ever just passed you by.

The possession of such emotions are impossible, not after all this.

World! I’m Out!